What DO I know?

After trying to explore myself in the final project and after watching the movie, I think I changed a little in my views on self concepts.

Our identity, mind, etc. is a vast expanse of ideas, thoughts, and power. We can become what we want to an extent if we really believe and try hard enough. In my overall and professional development, I see this as a positive intrigue to help expand my abilities and horizons. The many thoughts and ideas from the video will help me explore more into my own creativity and self

Who Am I?

I'M SPIDERMAN!!!!

but really

In the eyes of others, I am just one of the nerds who likes to watch anime, play video games, and always gets their work done. While that may be true to some extent, I am much more. I see myself as a complex individual who has a lot going on at one, someone who worries a lot, has no self-confidence, terrible at most of the things he does, but loves to play games and watch anime. I am here just because I am. I am here to live and make the best of what I have. I may worry a lot, have medical problems, and get depressed nowadays, but I am still here and will eventually find my place. Being here not as a person by being here as an individual mind. My body will always be here until it rots away, but my mind is here.

To others I am implicated because of how I act, dress, look, etc. My outward public self is only a small part of who I am. I am always the same in the eyes of those who do not always know me, to many I have not changed at all. Identity, especially for me, is not static. In fact identity itself is like the universe: infinite and constantly expanding and changing. We can be come someone else entirely at anytime, and who is to say who is the real one?

True Fear

I think the ones that will stick to me the most are Chris', the one that was with past drugs and cutting, and the one who fears herself.

Chris was just plain humorous and I can see why he fears idiots now. I am glad he showed it.

The other two just showed me how they themselves can be their worst enemy and their feelings did not help. It had an emotional impact on me.

My experiment was the fear of nothing. Fear is something you just do not want to experience and I was afraid of experiencing true nothingness. Nothing to do, see, smell, or hear. Just sitting for an hour doing nothing drove me nuts.

I expected people to be aggitated at the thought but all I got were blank stares. I guess I should have been a more physical and action-y with my experiment.

PH3A4 M3H

I plan my experiment will at the very least slightly agitate people. hopefully they may just leave during it. this is because my so called "fear" takes time to build up to the INSANITY.

BLISS

I played games with my friends all day during the time we used for Bliss project. We had a lot of fun and I can say I do not have a better time thna doing this. It is definately my favorite thing to do

Limitations

One of my limitations comes back every time to help make sure I do not do something. Like find a job or do homework. :/ In one instance I was supposed to have this assignment done but because of this thing that limits me, I did not do very much of it and it tended to be rushed and not very good in the end. I felt bad afterwards. I tried you know, but it could have been better. If only I wasn't being limited by something so stupid and uneeded.

Shfifty-FIVE

Now we gotta be 55 years old and reinvision our paper-clip project. I just did not understand. 55 year olds would just use them to clip paper or like fix a broken wallet because they are too cheap to buy a new one. When I see my chain of paper clips as a 55 year old, I see annoyance. Why would anyone want to do that? Hahaah. So I did two things as a 55 year old. If I were an ODD 55 year old, I would use it as some wierd desk decoration (no picture for this). However as a normal 55 year old, I would ake them apart one by one, reverse of my 5 year old project. But I can not do that since 1. I have a low attention span, and 2. I need to bring said project to class.

So instead, I took the already completed project and put them back in the container. Yeah that defeats the purpose but as a 55 year old, I would use them for paper or something stupider than it already is used for. So I kept them that way to be used for BOTH purposes.