What DO I know?

After trying to explore myself in the final project and after watching the movie, I think I changed a little in my views on self concepts.

Our identity, mind, etc. is a vast expanse of ideas, thoughts, and power. We can become what we want to an extent if we really believe and try hard enough. In my overall and professional development, I see this as a positive intrigue to help expand my abilities and horizons. The many thoughts and ideas from the video will help me explore more into my own creativity and self

Who Am I?

I'M SPIDERMAN!!!!

but really

In the eyes of others, I am just one of the nerds who likes to watch anime, play video games, and always gets their work done. While that may be true to some extent, I am much more. I see myself as a complex individual who has a lot going on at one, someone who worries a lot, has no self-confidence, terrible at most of the things he does, but loves to play games and watch anime. I am here just because I am. I am here to live and make the best of what I have. I may worry a lot, have medical problems, and get depressed nowadays, but I am still here and will eventually find my place. Being here not as a person by being here as an individual mind. My body will always be here until it rots away, but my mind is here.

To others I am implicated because of how I act, dress, look, etc. My outward public self is only a small part of who I am. I am always the same in the eyes of those who do not always know me, to many I have not changed at all. Identity, especially for me, is not static. In fact identity itself is like the universe: infinite and constantly expanding and changing. We can be come someone else entirely at anytime, and who is to say who is the real one?

True Fear

I think the ones that will stick to me the most are Chris', the one that was with past drugs and cutting, and the one who fears herself.

Chris was just plain humorous and I can see why he fears idiots now. I am glad he showed it.

The other two just showed me how they themselves can be their worst enemy and their feelings did not help. It had an emotional impact on me.

My experiment was the fear of nothing. Fear is something you just do not want to experience and I was afraid of experiencing true nothingness. Nothing to do, see, smell, or hear. Just sitting for an hour doing nothing drove me nuts.

I expected people to be aggitated at the thought but all I got were blank stares. I guess I should have been a more physical and action-y with my experiment.

PH3A4 M3H

I plan my experiment will at the very least slightly agitate people. hopefully they may just leave during it. this is because my so called "fear" takes time to build up to the INSANITY.

BLISS

I played games with my friends all day during the time we used for Bliss project. We had a lot of fun and I can say I do not have a better time thna doing this. It is definately my favorite thing to do

Limitations

One of my limitations comes back every time to help make sure I do not do something. Like find a job or do homework. :/ In one instance I was supposed to have this assignment done but because of this thing that limits me, I did not do very much of it and it tended to be rushed and not very good in the end. I felt bad afterwards. I tried you know, but it could have been better. If only I wasn't being limited by something so stupid and uneeded.

Shfifty-FIVE

Now we gotta be 55 years old and reinvision our paper-clip project. I just did not understand. 55 year olds would just use them to clip paper or like fix a broken wallet because they are too cheap to buy a new one. When I see my chain of paper clips as a 55 year old, I see annoyance. Why would anyone want to do that? Hahaah. So I did two things as a 55 year old. If I were an ODD 55 year old, I would use it as some wierd desk decoration (no picture for this). However as a normal 55 year old, I would ake them apart one by one, reverse of my 5 year old project. But I can not do that since 1. I have a low attention span, and 2. I need to bring said project to class.

So instead, I took the already completed project and put them back in the container. Yeah that defeats the purpose but as a 55 year old, I would use them for paper or something stupider than it already is used for. So I kept them that way to be used for BOTH purposes.

I am FIVE years old

So what did I do with my paper clips? I made a frigging long chain from them! Yes thats what I did when I was a little kid. Frankly I still do it all the time.

FFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-

I forgot the class memory assignment. Thanks guys. Beth was right, 2 days and I forget :/

I cannae see!

This time we have to do something that does not use our visual sight. Well that cuts down about 70% of any activity I could do haha. I went the sound route with music. And here is what I did with it. I used several musical pieces and just listened to them with everything else around me incomplete silence and I relaxed. This takes me off to a different place, thinking of different things, it sparks the use of my emotion, hearing, imagination, and more.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nyc6Zv8E8F0

What I want others to do is use this music or their own that can do the above and try it out. Try to think of what could be going on in the music or the possibilities of something while listening. Relax and try to close your eyes and just listen, think, and yes even feel. Things we hear can entirely change how we feel, taste, and yes even the forbidden part of seeing this time around.

Here is some more music I listened to:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nVWdXg2Iq8w

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YWrB9ZHV3fI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHsfsOSaLMs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=34pZzJb_gpo

Try and feel the emotions from these songs in your own way. Listen carefully. Hell even open your minds eye and maybe you can see without your eyes but with your brain and imagination.

Surprise!

It took me forever to think of something! It probably still is not a good idea at all, and I feel bad for it, but hey I tried my best. Watch the video below! It will do for a good laugh or two. I have been thinking all week and finally decided to go with this. Enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vj2hIcP7FAY

EDIT: It seems Youtube wants to be a bunch of jerks again. Seeing how in the end this video turned out to be a Rick Roll, under the disguise that my 3DS box was actually something else. For some reason the video is blocked in almost every country yet there are so many videos of this song up all of youtube. I do not know why I am the one to be hit by the block and it is not fair and it did not even show the whole song. This is messed up. Sorry for the inconvenience.

The Eggy Day

I feel the most interesting thing out of today was the girl who di the egg with the dye filled in it. They way it made crazy visuals with just that is amazing. I really liked how you could do so much with just that picture. It is great. You know I would really like a class that focused on doing stuff like that using photoshop. I had a photoshop class Freshman year but it was horrible and I didn't do diddly squat (really who uses Powerpoint for a photoshop class? :/)

Back to the egg, I think it was the best one shown in class. It was just so unique and creative it was unreal. I am glad I got to see it.

The Egg: A Star Is Born

When the egg was given to me, I was stumped. I was presented with one of the hardest assignments to think about my entire college student life. Seriously, what to do with an egg? So little choices, yet so many. If that makes any sense. Now the idea just came to me and it was entirely for the lols (that is internet speak for the laughs herr derr). So what did I do? Well without any further ado, allow my to present Pinz "Mini-pins" Head Jr.! Also known as "The Son of Pinhead!"

The father, Pinhead Sr came out and expressed joy he has never shown outside of his work. In quote: "I hope he follows in my footsteps." How would any father not want them to? He added: "I know the job is difficult, but I believe he become better at it than me when he grows older. It is in his genes!" All parents want their children to exceed them. Pinhead is no exception.


The mother, Mrs. Needles Head, did not wish to comment after a long, tiring, and very pain for day of delivery. However she did say she couldn't be "happier." It is little to say that big things are expected of little Mini-pins, being he has yet to reach full growth, even limbs for that matter. The father states it was the same for him, and the body is a lot bigger than one thinks. The picture does no justice. Allow him a chance and Mini-pins will show you his true capabilities in the future!


In all seriousness now, that is what I did with my egg. I could not think of anything and this just came to me. I did it for the laughs and I hope others laugh at it to, for one reason or another. The egg is a hard but simple assignment and I now see what this class truly represents. I just have to keep trying and figure out stuff for future projects!

Course Expectations

What I expect from seeing sideways is what I expect from any class in college. And that is to learn as much as possible for my money;s worth. In the past I have had a couple of classes that did not meet this. I expect this class to be full of its unique ways of thinking to make me a better learner and thinking so I can go on to make better projects and work. I expect little which amounts to a lot, but its what everyone should expect when taking this class. I expect nothing more than was promised during the first class. I hope I can leave this class being able to make more unique things than doing the basics on what everyone else does.